so tomorrow my marathon leg training officially begins! I’ve ran 6 miles easily before but I haven’t trained in soooooo long. I’m scared I may pass out haha also starting Jillian Michaels “No More Trouble Zones” for strength training!
I’m running the marathon leg as part of team to raise money for my mission trip to Uganda this summer..more to follow on that :)
so, this is my first blog…ever!! not really sure how to go about this but hey, change is good :) I decided I needed a place to vent, keep me on track, and help me achieve my goals and so…here I am.
In January 2013 my friends and I booked our first summer holiday..and me being me my first thought was “oh crap..bikini time” so I decided to start dieting and exercising in order to be confident on the beach! I wasn’t overweight or anything, just a bit chubby..
I started counting calories and working out 6x a week and lost 10lbs in 5 months..just in time for holiday! I still felt uncomfortable walking around in my bikini..but had an amazing holiday..eating lots of crap foods and drinking plenty of cocktails hehe.
I came home…and that’s when the problem started. after eating so much junk and not working out for a few weeks I still managed to lose an extra 5 lbs. this started the mentality of “oh I can eat loads and still lose weight” and a few months later, the bingeing started. like major binges. I would eat sensibly throughout the day then night time came and I would eat so much toast, cereal, chocolate..anything carby and sweet I devoured.
I was still working out so it took a while for the weight to show. but trust me it did. In the last year I’ve gained back all the weight I lost before holiday and more. more recently its become more serious with me getting caught in a cycle of bingeing then starving/purging. I NEED THIS TO STOP. I need to get back on track and I’ve been told blogging is a great way to help!
my goals now, to lose fat and tone up…and finally recover from this eating disorder. It may not be diagnosed as a mainstream disorder but my relationship with food is so unhealthy, I need to kick this once and for all.
thanks for reading..hopefully I get the hang of this soon!